day name: init
[motivation of post: mainly in creating system investment by (somewhat theoretical, since my blog is tiny) commitment mechanism; also to document how an incremental org system changes and evolves]
[scrutability: probably inscrutable for anyone bu myself. I can write, but translating internal knowledge to text… meh. Takes too long, and I’m in a critical beginning stage. If it works out, I will elaborate and explain.]
I’m building an organizational system. I built many in the last decade. None of them survive.
The last ones, that I built in TheBrain actually lasted quite a while.
But they had frustrating overhead issues. [even though the last Brain, worth mentioning contained 5.5k Thoughts relatively small relative to previous iterations]
And whilst TheBrain enabled unprecedented functionality as a human being in the past… it also led to a kind of compartmentalization.
It made me… like a neurotypical person performance-wise.
I loved being so organized. But there was also a lot of friction and procrastination in what I was doing. And the system was too big and complex, too fast.
And refactoring it was… really difficult.
So it became aversive to use and some other unrelated reasons made using TheBrain unviable.
So I tried switching to OneNote, which has some aspects that I absolutely love.
[pen-input! 2d free-form!]
But that didn’t work out. In some ways OneNote is very annoying.
And it lacks many of the strengths of TheBrain.
So I abandoned most of my working systems, oscillated between half-baked OneNote-systems… and severe dissociation via hyperfocus-episodes. There were times of reflection in-between.
You learn interesting things about cognition, if you ask yourself… “So… why exactly did I spent the last 20 days reading for 12 hours on average?”.
[note: not insanity, since over a larger timescale, I didn’t try the same things over and over again. I certainly tried variations of the things. And entirely different things!]
I knew a lot already about it in general, but now I understand some ADHD-dynamics and probably some factors unique to myself.
Now… I might actually know enough to act as a rational agent across time.
Here are some screenshot from the red/logical structure in TheBrain 12. [well the Plex-part, anyways]
I would show the notes… but they are still a mess.
I don’t actually know where to write which things.
Projects do not have “sharp edges” from one another or from the day-Thought.
Info is distributed in a sprawl. And the projects have to-dos which should be projects in their own right, using the structure is actually super-slow and confusing.
And it’s not a self-sustaining structure as in: looking at this mess, won’t tell me what I’m supposed to do and there is no process that makes sure I will continue to use the system… but that’s all ok.
It’s just a very small start to get oriented on the important things to build.
I did not try to make every idea I’ve ever had into a project with actionable items.
[actually impossible, since writing down ideas creates more ideas creating a never-ending task]
Tomorrow I will figure the basic issues out and refactor what little I have.
[into something that works better, just have to steal and combine some earlier solutions I had]
That’s part of the “incremental”-aspect of the system.
Now an example of the magical aspect:
problem I’m trying to solve:
Where is my [insert object] when I need it?
Why is that a problem? Cause ADHD-stuff. (long explanation in another post)
I had an inventory off all my things and their locations before.
Still wasted a lot of time hunting for things and the overhead in maintenance was big.
And… I forgot to put things where they were supposed to, a lot.
Or forgot to add newly bought gadgets. Or document changes. Or avoid duplicates.
Or figure out how to name things. Or forgot how I named a thing, that I was looking for…
like what language did I even use?
Mostly I think in English, but some objects I’d instinctively use German for.
So the trick is…
I’ll just memorize where everything is AND maintain a less-complicated where I just note down the location, should I forget it.
[instead of creating a typed Thought for each object, which was awkward and cumbersome to maintain or modify]
This is sort of like loci-method or a memory palace.
Except, I’m just trying to remember the palace itself. (and all of its hundreds of treasures, like screwdrivers, keyboards, paper supplies, pens, shoes, underwear, books, dumbbells, cables, glasses etc.)
hmm… wrote the “why is this a problem”-post just now. So I don’t want to add more details describing the solution and why it’s “magical” and “incremental”. Probably in day 2.
Didn’t mean to write so much. Too much to edit *blegh*